They posted my job at my company this week. I knew it was coming, but the finality of seeing it in black and white was so brutal. So complete.
I collapsed, both physically and emotionally, into a quivering gelatinous pile. Inconsolable.
I’m leaving a place that I have been working nearly my entire adult life (if you take out 4-5 years or so). I have so many friends, so much history here. And I am good at it, really good at it. I know that I will find something else, but this is one of the hardest things I have ever done. To make this choice that I know will be so beneficial for my family and for my own personal well-being.
What is it that Maria quotes in The Sound of Music? “When God closes a door, somewhere He opens a window”? I don’t know if I’ve found that open window yet. I just keep finding more closed doors. So, there better be a damn open veranda somewhere.
The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it, and join the dance. ~Alan W. Watts
There have been a lot of changes in the Grandt household lately. Good changes. Scary changes. But good changes.
We are moving.
We are packing up this house, the four people in it, one cat, and unfortunately too much stuff, and moving it approximately 250 miles west to the town I grew up in. A small town with approximately 2,500 people.
And I can’t wait.
In actuality, Jason has been there already for a month. He started a new position in the IT department at the University of Iowa Hospitals & Clinics the day after Labor Day. He’s been staying with my parents, while we finalize some things here.
The girls will start school in West Branch after Columbus Day. There will be a transition for Claire, because she will go from full-day, five-day-a-week preschool to half-day, four-day-a-week preschool. But for Maggie, she’ll now have cousins in the same grade as her. They’re both excited.
But there’s been a problem of housing. So far we have been thinking we may have to stay in the spare room at my parents – all four of us in the one room. And I am having nightmares of not being able to access any of the things I will have to put in storage for the next 6-9 months. But things are seeming to come around on this aspect, so we hope to have good news on that soon. We just need someone to buy our townhouse now (you need one, right? It comes with a nosy neighbor!).
There’s also been a hiccup with my employment and I will be unable to continue with my current employer. My last day of physically being at my office here in IL will be October 9th. After that, I will continue working from home for my company short-term as we get our house ready to put on the market. But yes, looking for something new in IA at the same time.
It has been a roller-coaster of emotions that I am not sure I was quite prepared for, especially in regards to my job. And I know that our family and friends here locally will miss us quite a bit. But this decision is one that we felt was good for our family long-term. And the sacrifices will be worth it.
A new adventure.